For years, my journey back to myself has been a winding road, marked by both healthy and unhealthy detours. Addiction, abuse, bullying, sexual abuse, eating disorders, and codependency were just some of the landscapes I navigated. Suicidal thoughts shadowed my teenage years, compounded by the isolation of being ostracized for my mental health. While the details of my past traumas could fill pages, the underlying truth remained: I always knew there was more.
In my search for wholeness, I explored countless paths – from weight loss plans and CBT to hypnotherapy, essential oils, journaling, exercise, support groups, and even the difficult act of cutting ties. I tried surrounding myself with others, and at times, sought solace in substances, retreats, and workshops. Each experience, in its own way, guided me toward the practices that now anchor my life.
Today, my core support system includes psychotherapy, a 12-step program, ceremonial cacao, and womb work. These modalities, particularly over the last three years, have been the primary catalysts for my journey of embodiment – of truly coming home to myself. And I'm still navigating other aspects of my well-being, such as managing ADHD, fostering healthy relationships, and healing my gut.
Yet, amidst this exploration of external tools, the past few weeks have brought a profound realization: the most reliable modality I will ever have is coming home to myself. This isn't about a dramatic awakening experienced at a retreat, through psychedelics, or under the guidance of another. It's not about ego death, kundalini rising, or being pushed or pulled by external forces, least of all through harsh self-criticism. It's simply coming home.
While I don't discount the power of profound external experiences – and have had some myself – I now believe the deepest work often lies in the simple, yet infinitely harder, act of being present with myself.
And that’s what ceremonial cacao offers me. She doesn't force breakthroughs or dramatic shifts. Instead, she gently creates space for my heart to open – in peace, stillness, and slowness. And this gentle unfolding has been my most challenging awakening yet: to simply sit with myself, embracing whatever arises, allowing time to pass without the urge to escape or distract myself from difficult emotions.
By allowing my heart to open, to be sad, be angry or to love: allows me to connect more deeply with my womb. And she is loud.
My womb is fierce, angry, sad, devastated and wild but she is also full of love from the heart. She is soft, welcoming, joyful and playful.
Womb healing both is and isn't the miracle you've been waiting for.
You didn't realise that she has the answers until you're listening.
Womb healing isn't necessarily the instant miracle we might seek. The answers reside within her, waiting to be heard. My hope for you is that you too discover the unique healing modalities that will open your heart and guide you to the profound womb wisdom held within.
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If you'd like to work with me, I offer womb healing & menstrual cycle syncing. I also work with ceremonial cacao and mama cacao, offering shamanic journeys. Send me an email or you can book online here:
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